Dear Blog....

Dear Blog,

I apologize for ignoring you all summer. I don't really know where the summer went. I think I spent most of it anxiety-ridden and annoyed.

I'm glad I sense autumn in the air.

Honestly, blog, I kind of forgot you existed. I posted some blogs over on the ol' myspace. Which while I enjoyed taking a few laps around the sarcasm track I started obsessing over who would read it and what people would think. That is so very not "zen".

I have all this art building up inside of me and for some reason I keep putting it off. This is not helping anybody.

I can't decide if I like my life or not. I don't think I do. But I feel obligated to stay where I am. I hardly am capable of paying rent these days and yet I think if I quit my job I wouldn't be able to pay rent. Hmm....

I wish I had the balls to be a squatter. But then what would I do with my laptop?

I hate how jaded I am here. I hate that because I am a woman I cannot engage with strangers. That is something to blog about.

All in due time,
J.